Recently I’ve started thinking about the future and the many decisions that I need to make pretty soon. Right or wrong, I feel these choices will set my life’s path. I definitely don’t feel that I am committed to any one decision for a lifetime, but I have no forecast of how long I will be involved in that area or what opportunities will appear as a result. There are so many different things I want to try out and I don’t know where to start.
To give context to this rambling, the main issue I’m dealing with is where to focus my attention for employment after school. Realistically, my choices will probably be limited to “who will take me,” but I like to think that if I apply myself I have a chance at most of my goals.
My sights had always been set on working for myself, or running my own business of some sort. It was a clear goal and I knew the steps I had to take to achieve it. Recently I have been completely rethinking that stance. I feel that I can more or less be working for myself my whole life if I make the right decisions and follow a path that keeps me happy.
I started thinking that working at a small design studio would be great. Just working with a few designers in a very close-knit environment on innovative projects. On the other hand, I also began thinking about how interesting it would be to be part of a larger firm, one involved in projects on a massive scale that reach and affect a global audience. On the complete opposite side, I have great admiration for the start-up entrepreneurs that develop a personal project to the point of financial stability.
Looking past the range of job types, I began considering where in the world I would be able to put myself. I always wanted to move back to Europe at some point. Then I started thinking about how amazing a job in a place like Boulder, Colorado would be. Minutes from some of the best skiing in the world, employed at one of the top advertising agencies in the world. On the other hand, I have to look no further than out my window to realize how amazing a place I’m already living in. Perhaps a simple move downtown would sort out that decision.
The thing that scares me most is the thought of becoming comfortable in something and spending too much time with it and simply discarding the many other things I had envisioned doing. If I’m searching for the perfect life, and I find something good, what is going to tell me if I have found it or if I should keep pushing on.
While thinking about all this, I’ve decided that life is too short to make decisions. Unfortunately, life is also too short to not make decisions.